Today marks 5 months since you were taken away from me. I think about you every second of every single day. I wish I could give you just one more hug and tell you I love you.
It's a date on the calendar. It's a day of the week. It's the 13th, the anniversary of you passing away. I now dread this date. It's only a reminder of more time slipping away without you present in my life.
Where do I start? I've got 5 months worth of stories, questions, laughter, tears and life to share with you. So, here goes....
1. I rocked Thanksgiving dinner..yet again! Dinner was kick ass. :) We elected Brian to be the new turkey carver. Of course, we brought up 2 years ago when you were carving the bird and cut right through the roaster pan allowing all the turkey juice to flow down the counter onto the floor (much the dog's delight). I made a toast to you.
2. Zach, Taylor and I played scattergories after dinner. We got a good giggle out of talking about playing with you a few years ago. Remember as we went around the table saying our words aloud and we discovered you were coming up with words of an entirely different letter than what we were supposed to be using?! And, Zach shouted out the word "jalapeno" for words begging with H?
3. Christmas sucked - plain and simple. Wait - Zach, Taylor and Brian got me a GIANT, new, blue pooper scooper!! You would've cracked up...I can hear your laugh.
4. Your grandpuppies are still crazy. :) Simon will be 14 years old this Saturday. He's still got his spunky little personality, just a bit slower..I like to think of it as he takes his good ole time. I've seen Max several times. He lost weight! No more people food, LOL. He's doing really good Dad. It's cute to see how he lounges in Brett's recliner with with his head resting on the arm just like he did with you.
5. My car isn't running right. HELP?!
6. I have to fight the urge to pick up the phone and call you everyday when I leave work.
7. Mom - enough said. I'm so sorry for what you had to go through with her. I'm sorry that I'm not able to hide my feelings anymore. I feel a lot of anger towards her.
8. You'd be so proud of your grandkids! Taylor's been accepted to Wittenberg and Bluffton. Zach got his learners permit. Michael got his license and Matthew got a 50% scholarship to McNicks!!
9. I'm sorry for thinking you didn't understand the uConnect phone system in the Jeep. It is a pain in the ass!! The dumb system never recognized who I was trying to call unless I resorted to speaking the number. Thank you for dog-earing the page in the manual so I could figure out how to set it up.
10. Oh, I have been a nervous wreck about this burning smell in the house. Per usual, I overreacted and immediately turned off the ceiling fans, unplugged my Sonicare toothbrush and all the wallflowers. LOL, I finally think I figured out where the smell was coming from....it was the wreath with lights on it hanging on the front door!! You know how hot my front door gets?? It's a million degrees when the sun is shining. The smell happened on very sunny days and I happened to open the front door - the lights on the wreath were MELTING!! The batteries that powered the lights were MELTING!! You would've chuckled...I know you would've chuckled.
11. It's hard Dad. It's really hard...life without you is hard.
Beautifully said Sam, I know he's listening to your every thought and watching out for you. Also, I think I would take a burning smell over my current wall flower... it's quite over powering!
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